Beware of what One asks For……

I am taking some time off before I hit the start button again…yes, nothing else but with my dear, honorable, sweet work.

I remember clearly that I once stated in my work plan that I wanted an analytical task. I felt that it was time to train myself to improve my analyzing skills and make good justifications out of my findings. It was written in my form just couple of months back. Now, I have what I asked for.

For the past month (and more nowadays), quite a bit of analytical cases were being served onto my plate. It started to be a side dish which I needed to work on, but later, it was (is) served to be one of the main dish.

Is it a good or bad thing for me? Obviously, it was something that I wished for, because I thought it is able to train me to be a better slave and so that I will be able to blossom and be a valuable asset as well in future.

Now, I am in it, am I able to cope with it? Am I able to master the skills? How long will I be able to keep myself alive with it?

There are just so many question marks in me. Just too many insecurities and uncertainties.

I doubt myself. I doubt myself for not performing up to expectations...My spirit has just plummeted like the stockmarket. Will I be able to pick it up soon?