Too much for too little time

(Back to Sunday evening)

It’s almost 6pm now. Here I am sitting in the room alone, venting out my thoughts and frustrations right here.

I know I shouldn’t wind about this over and over, but I just couldn’t help it. I was being very positive at work, trying to complete whatever that I can cope with and within my capacity. I tried to do as much as possible so that I can enjoy my weekend, at least.

To me, the definition of enjoying a weekend is: there is no need to turn my laptop - no need to look at any materials and looking at my emails. Enjoying a weekend is by spending time with loved ones, doing the things that we like and be free as a bird. I have not been doing that or getting that privilege which is quite upsetting.

This weekend is just another working weekend and I kinda of lost track of how this-kind-of- weekends I had lately. I’ve been neglecting my special ones and just doing my own stuff. My mind is occupied with work, and nothing else. I think this kind of tick some people off….me being absent minded.

Other than work, I also had some other personal errands to run. Weekend is the only time that I have.

Last night, we met up with his friend for dinner nearby his place. We adjourned to his friend’s house for yacking session and later turned out to be a ‘mind, braveness and face exercise session’ – Cards playing and we played Texas Poker! I enjoyed the night very much but partially I was thinking about work.

By the time we hit the bed, it was closed to 6am. I was too tired to continue with my work as I woke up early that morning.

I kind of also remind myself and telling others: “Time is precious, and I cannot afford to lose any.”

I know going through hardship is ok because I will learn and be experienced. But, at times, I wonder if the effort and time put in is being appreciated by others? Is it worth it or will I just get some ‘love emails’ shooting me left, right, and center? But if on the other hand, other appreciates the personal time that I’ve sacrificed, it is a whole different ballgame.

When it comes to personal time, I think I want it. Yes, I am now that selfish and not dedicating all my time to work unless it is really needed!

Practice what you preach – Work Life Balance?!