Late Night Whine

It’s 4.25am now. I’ve just ran through the emails that were sent on Friday as I was travelling and unable to access to my mailbox. There were some important emails, some reminders and a very disturbing email.

I don’t think I can sleep now.

I just can’t understand what wrong I did to her. The delay delivery (actually was on the dot) of the artwork was mainly because the confirmation of the promotion mechanic was given LATE by HER! The pain of securing stocks that I had to go through was a ‘please lar, please help lar’ that I’ve said to my product supply chain (to release the stocks to me) and finance (as it is the closing of financial year now, have to do a pre payment for the stocks). Plus my agency needed time to change the product pack shot and resize it accordingly. Not everyone sitting at their desk just serving YOU! She didn’t understand my situation and all I get was whooped in the face.

I always remind myself of the ‘good deed’ she did for me. But, at times, I felt that it’s not fair to me. I AM thankful (and I really am, truthfully) for what she did for me, but at times taking all this shit and being threatened of changing another manager to service her is too much. I don’t like to be threatened.

I tried to buck up. It didn’t work. Maybe not enough.

I even started wearing back my rose quartz necklace. It is suppose to be good for communication and improves relationship – in this case, of course I want my relationship with the people I deal with at work to be improved; to be better. I walked passed a crystal shop today and walked in. I took up the catalogue to check if there are any other stones that can provide more to improve relationships. Call me superstitious.

Or maybe I started this off with my wrong foot in the first place? Maybe I am just not fit enough to handle this role. I still just couldn’t figure it out.

I am just now waiting for the day to come and leave --leaving her happy with another person who can serve her better and leaving me not living in this misery and stress (work wise).