Sunday Night's Thoughts

It really makes me ponder. ..how do I know what am I really good at? I am just an average person.

I might know the answers to my own questions, but the thing is, I am lacking of opportunities unlike previous times.

Throughout my years in the workforce, I don’t think I have ever encountered/ met a good mentor, except for one. But really unfortunately, I’ve only managed to learn from her for less than a year until I was offered to a totally different job opportunity. To me, at this juncture, this opportunity is a little quite unhappy learning curve.

Until today, (I know I have mentioned this before) I still can’t figure out the reasons for feeling like crap every Sunday night. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this crappy in my previous job(s). I liked and enjoyed very much what I was doing previously even though it was a one man show kind of job scope. One-leg-kick, I managed to work my way through.

Off and on, I will look back at the photos of the jobs/ events that I’ve managed, planned and organized, and the interesting people that I've met. The networking circle was bigger and friendlier then. I really miss those days. I never felt tired and worn out or lost focus.

I can’t turn back time. No one can. I am left with no choice but to make the coming days and months a better one.

Dear Universe/ God,
Please help and grant me with courage and strength to improve my working life. Let me see and feel the light at the end of this tunnel – the path that was presented to me. I want to see the sparks in my eyes again. Thank you.

The GoldCoast Experience

It was our yearly Distributor Convention last week. It was held at Sepang Goldcoast. I drove there alone after making a pit stop at my customer’s place that morning. Oh my, Sepang Goldcost is located really far away. What an adventure I had!

Even though the place was really far away, but it is a very nice resort. Even though I don’t have the chance to visit Dubai for now, but I’ve visited the replica of it. ;)

The resort’s concept is a bit similar to Legend, PD. All of the villas are on stilts and we need to have a long walk (if your room is nearer to the horizon of the sea) and have buggy rides to the clubhouse or lobby.

2 rooms and a common living hall

The walk way to the room

Long story short, the first assignment of mine was to join in the group for a performance. I only got to rehearse few minutes before performing to the whole lot of distributors. Here was the theme and how I looked like! I turned blue and into blue! Avatar was the theme for the year.

Besides this, I was assigned to do a presentation to all the independent supermarket sellers. I only got to know that I had to present to 70 people in the room 30 minutes before my preso slot. I was really stressed the day before and was shaking since morning as I didn’t have much time to prepare myself. I ended up having a bad headache, since morning.

Our dinner setup was by the beach and the theme was white. Again, I had to perform a dance with the group last minute! One thing I realized was, working with this company has to be really impromptu and expect the unexpected!

My headache was really killing me that night. I sneaked back to my room, bathed and sleep, while the rest of them adjourned to the hall for major, crazy drinking session; getting themselves intoxicated.

I totally knocked out that night because I didn’t hear my villa mates’ Symphony No.5!

Expectations & Disappointments

(Blogging from Kota Kinabalu’s airport)

“Sometimes it is better not to have any expectations in life, to avoid any disappointments.”

It’s Friday afternoon and I am stuck in KK International Airport, Sabah, at this very moment that I am typing here. I was supposed to board MH2613 at 3.30pm. But, the plane wasn’t parked at its assigned spot and later it was announced that the flight is delayed till further notice!

Later, it was announced that we will depart back to KL at 4.55pm!

I was quite pissed & annoyed as I was eager to go home. The week had been a long one, after all. Plus, next week is another hectic week! I just wanted to have some R&R time with my loved ones.

Good to myself

"Were you good to yourself on the weekend?" That was the question Jay and Ferhad asked the listeners this morning. My answer: "Yes, I was good to myself on the weekend; this weekend."

I didn't do much of my work, except for checking on the work emails. And I just gave some thoughts to the upcoming projects and sell but not actually draffting them out. I did this while I was driving and bathing. How ironic.

But, the guilt creeps in the moment I woke up this morning.......

Looking at you

I love looking at you;
Whether your face is partially being under the bolster or covered with sheets;
I love looking at your dimple on your cheeks;
- Smiling, whether you are sitting beside me or opposite;
I admire you; I love you.

Sunday's Maximization

A final maximization for my Sunday night -I had a drink with Fookies just now. I feel better being around people; my besties.

There were some updates on 6th Fookie’s wedding plan. We are all excited about it! More good news and events happening in our circle of friends.

:)

Sunday's Mixed Feelings

I am feeling really down now. Mixed feelings; I shall call it. Somehow, I tear-ed. I don’t know why I felt that as if I am lost when he left for his business trip just now. I felt the emptiness. I lost my concentration. Weird. I shared with him how I felt. I was neither not shy nor wanting to hide my feelings from him. I don’t see a reason to hide and not share when two people are in a relationship, especially with him. Maybe because he is important to me; in my life. Maybe it's also because I know he is far away from me....

The weekend has come to an end. I start to feel the work stress in me, as if it’s haunting me. This week will be a busy week for me (which week isn’t, by the way?). There is training in store for us tomorrow, then I have to prepare for my Tuesday's meeting. An important meeting to make or break. Wednesday will not allow me to complete most of my work as I have my customer’s event to attend in the afternoon. Thursday and Friday I will be in KK, Sabah for a trade visit. I just can’t wait for the weekend to come again – that is what I always look forward to.

I just hope I will feel better later.

Thank you Note

" I am home. You enjoyed yourself?"

"Yes, thanks dear. For maximizing the weekend for me, with me."

I want to thank my Guardian Angel for giving me a good Saturday. We started off with a late lunch, then back to his place to watch movies. Later, followed with a late dinner and rounds of card games at his friend's place. I had a great time!

Thank you. Love you!

Ok, I am going to bed now - see you in the 2nd layer of dreams.

Inception to a Friday Night

I watched Inception with Guardian Angel tonight. I was really looking forward to it.

It is a very good movie, I must say. Christopher Nolan did a brilliant job! He is really imaginative and his creativity, awesome! I find it very intriguing. This 2 hours plus movie kept my mind going and wanting to know the next scene, the next happening and so on.

I won’t dwell into the details of the movie, I strongly recommend you out there to just watch it!

A very Unhappy Day

I am rather unhappy today. I feel as if I am going to burst and it’s really up to my neck. I really feel like throwing in the towel. But, I know I can’t (for now).

I really cannot understand why. This is me – I dislike being unappreciated.

I’ve tried my very best in terms of follow ups and to get something which is beneficial and I expect an answer to it. What do I get end of the day? NOTHING. NO REPLY, NO INDICATION. Being on the supplier side doesn’t mean I have to take all the shit from you. I am also human. Everything you requested, I try my level best to fulfill. Please have some respect. When I asked for something politely, I would expect an answer or at least a response. Don’t you know what manners are? You might be busy, everyone is busy in their life – but, it just doesn’t work this way!

I had enough!

IF, IF only I have an alternative, I would NOT stay on.

I really cannot understand. No doubt, there is always work stress, but, this time round, I just don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I used to enjoy and still can handle the stress when I was in the flamboyant industry. But now, I just couldn’t. Maybe IT IS NOT my cup of tea. The passion and love, just didn’t grow over the months.

Why? I don’t get it.

Having a turning point at this juncture is running away from reality. I have to admit.

Dear God and Universe, what should I do now? I seek your guidance for a better alternative to this torment. Mentally, I just cannot cope nor focus.

*I am really looking forward to Friday night. That is when I can get away from all these for 2 days. I don't think I want to waste this precious 2 days.

Happiness in Me

[Ok, 1 last blog entry before I call it a night (Sunday night, yup, tomorrow is the start of another challenging week).]

We spent the afternoon watching a movie at home. It was the time of the week to spend quality time together. After that, we went for our separate activities – I went for dinner with Mrs Giggs and he went for a guys’ night out – Footie Finals!

I picked up Mrs Giggs and off we headed for steamy steamboat. Yay! As we have just started eating, my phone vibrated. It was Guardian Angel. He texted me asking where were we having dinner. I told him and later he and Stevie joined us, before heading for the guys’ night out. ;) Unexpectedly!

We enjoyed the dinner very much. I know I did. Both of the guys left first and both Mrs Giggs and I left after we both watched a clip on YouTube.

As I was on the way home, mama called. I told her that I was on my way home after dropping Mrs Giggs off back at her apartment. Mama asked if Guardian Angel and I were ok as she found out from me that he didn’t accompany me home. I told her that it was a guys’ night out and I didn’t want to follow even though I wanted to watch the finals; moreover I have to work tomorrow.

I felt that sometimes a couple can have their own time with friends. Simple, my principle is – respect and trust are the important elements in a relationship. I understand sometimes guys also want to have fun – talking whatever under the moon, drinking or games.

I was told that I don’t portrait the happiness in me. Deep down inside me, I am really happy. I am happy to be in a new relationship; I am happy that I have found someone who cares and loves; who can complete my sentences, knows and understands me. Compatibility.

I am happy that I’ve met and have you ;) How about you?

2nd Darkest Secret Revealed

Another discovery




Reputation down the drain...Sigh!

Darkest Secret Revealed

A World Cup discovery…

Double Celebration Night

It was raining heavily when I was making my way to Mont’ Kiara yesterday evening. I managed to reach safely, got myself a visitor pass and got a parking lot. Strutted out from the lift at 11th floor and pressed the door bell.

It was a long-awaited gathering with the Fookies again. It was also a double celebration night! All of us brought food and of course, the hosts cooked their signature dishes. Yummy….mouth-watering.

Yummy....

The night was well prepared with drinks and cake, besides the wonderful food. We celebrated 3F and 6F’s birthday at one go and also the other good news was that 4F got her scholarship for her PhD in Korea! How great is that?! But, the a little down side of it is she will be there for 4 years. We won’t be able to see and hear her jokes and laughter so often anymore.

Make a wish, ladies.

We got to also admire 6F’s 4th finger’s bling bling. It is really pretty. ;)

As usual, the apartment was filled with joy and laughter. Everyone was present except for Guardian Angel because he wasn’t feeling too well (I recovered in time for it). Football fever.

It was a great night out – as always – having all Fookies around!

Office

Every weekday morning I step into this place.

Somewhat cheery, somewhat bright, somehow pressuring (at times).

It is a eco-friendly office. Check it out!

Everybody works paperless, recyclable bins around and …..

The view from where I always sit (come early to get a good spot)

Paper cup-less and here is mine- personalised.

Weekend Line-up

Woke up this morning and took Optimus Prime for a shower. It was dirty, thanks to the rain off late. First time ever, I sat in the car while the guys washed my car. (I didn’t have the chance to get out from my car and he started spraying water onto OP)

I am feeling better today, except for still some slight sniffy nose.

Today will be a fun day! It will first start off with lunch with Guardian Angel and his family. I suggested to have lunch with them as it had been awhile since I last visited and spend some time with them. Not too sure where we will be dining, though. ;)

I might want to do some shopping if possible. I also need to utilise my vouchers before it’s expired!

This evening will be 2 birthday celebrations combined into 1 at 5F’s house. Can’t wait for the yummy potluck and filled with happy juice session.

It will be a nice weekend before the intense week begins. I am so looking forward to the activities.

Ooh ohh…..got to go now!

I hope you weekend will be a great one, too!

My Weekly Review

Week’s Review:

#1
I was at my customer’s place for a meeting in the morning. While I was in her room, I think she called her hubby to settle some house’s issue. At the end of the conversation, she thanked him. From the conversation, I guessed her hubby asked her why she showed her gratitude.

I think it was a great action to take in any relationships – thanking and not taking someone for granted.

#2
I was expecting to kena slapped left, right, center from my beloved because I’ve overlooked it. When I finally got her on the phone to explain, she accepted my explanation. Hmm…something wasn’t quite right there. Maybe sometimes, just have to be bold and brave. Things might not be as bad as you thought.

#3
Staying up all night and only having 1 hour of sleep. It was my very first time that I stayed up and followed Guardian Angel to watch the World Cup match – Germany vs Spain. Had only 1.5 hours of sleep before turning into a zombie with flamed eyes and went to work. Totally got knocked out that night, especially after having 2 small glasses of happy juice with a bunch of fun people at Muse.

#4
The not-enough-sleep- effect hit me. I was on ½ day MC. My nose was runny like nobody business, eyes were watery. I went to see a doctor (a clinic which I started visiting 7 years ago, I didn’t realized it was that long until I saw my card) and got some medicine. Sent out a report and hit the bed. Snooze and turned into a pig – a sick pig.

That was how exciting my week has been so far.

What is in store next?

Goaty Soapy

My cousin brought this back from Aussie for me. I used it to bathe Gabby…

Cute, right?

Working Life

Working life – for survival.

How is yours? How is theirs?

A Worth-staying - in- Suite

It was quite recent that I stayed at Northam All Suites, Penang. It was by accident that we stayed there during our trade visit (long story, short). In summary, the suite is really worth the reasonable price for such a spacious and comfortable room.

Room rate starting from: RM220++ (excludes breakfast)

Sharing with you how the nice suite looks like:

makes you feel like a president sitting there

The comfortable bed

Pre-dators

Another impromptu,movie night out. I was just supposed to meet up for dinner with Guardian Angel –as per our afternoon plan. In the evening, he texted me and told me that we will be going for a movie. A friend of his shared 2 tickets of a free special screening for Predators.

I was late. I had to send out an email to my beloved before shutting down my lappie.
I was late because I couldn’t get a parking lot. Finally, after 20 minutes, I found one.

I rushed to GSC and we met up. There was not much time left for a proper dinner, so with the help of my big handbag, we ate when the movie started (food smuggler).

We were lucky that we didn’t pay for the movie. It doesn’t have a storyline. It is just all gory and blood squirting out from the bodies. I still prefer the older days’ Predators.

We left for home after the movie. Good night, everyone!

*Yawn*

Someone

I’ve never thought that I would be this lucky
To meet someone like you
Someone who has the character and wisdom
Someone who listens; makes sense out of what is said
Someone who makes a promise and never break it

Caring and loving
Someone who loves full heartedly, accepts the goodness and imperfection
Go through the frust(s)

Give up the favourites willingly

The bonding and respect forms

Needless to say more

And you know who you are

Sunday's Happenings

Today was a running errands day. I dropped by Carrefour to replenish my weekly food supply – 2 cartons of milk, 4 cups of yogurt and a bottle of yogurt drink. Thereafter, I wanted to walk over to the gym, but I saw the sky was really dark; it was going to pour anytime. So, I walked back to Optimus Prime and drove over. I managed to get a parking lot near to the lift. Lucky.

I rushed home after gym. Stevie came to pick me up and we headed to Guardian Angel’s office for the warehouse sales. Wow, everything was going cheap! I wanted to get what mama wanted, but too bad, I supposed it was sold out. Instead, I got her some other things that she needed at a really offer, no need to bargain price. Mrs Giggs also asked me to help her to get many branded scrubs and masques. :)

The weather was kind to us as it was cooling, after the rain. It was great to hang out at the warehouse sales. I got to observe how consumers bargain for already- lowered- price -items. We headed back to my house after the sales were over as mama had cooked dinner. It was a scrumptious dinner! I hope Guardian Angel enjoyed it too.

Guardian Angel and I lepak-ed at Stevie’s house after dinner with games of cards till midnight.

I didn’t work this weekend. Somehow felt a little bad, but somehow felt happy as this is what I call a weekend + work-life balance.

Good night, everyone and have a good start to the week!

One of Those Relaxing Saturdays

We met up with Stevie tonight. He brought us somewhere in Puchong for yong tau fu. It is one of those village kind of food set up – under zinc roof. It is similar to the original yong tau fu in Ampang.

We adjourned to his house for footie and a session of cards playing after a very filling dinner. The Germans played the game very well – very good, tight defense against the Argentineans. They deserved to win.

Overall, it was a relaxing Saturday for me – one of those weekends that I enjoy, where not much of a rush and just do what we enjoy doing – together.

Colored Day Off

Today was my day off. It was great to wake up later than usual. I felt refreshed and well rested. My eyes felt better.

Besides getting enough rest, it was my appointment day to get it done after 7 months for the very first time. I finally got my hair colored again. Phew! I feel so much better. Maybe this is because I am just so used to getting my hair color touched up almost every month in the past 4 years. :)

I chose a rich brown tone which is similar to my natural hair color as I don’t know when will I have the time and chance to get a hair dye again.

I called 6F after leaving the salon. It was an impromptu call. I asked if she was free to make a trip to Sunway Pyramid with me. Yay! She agreed and very quickly we headed off to the mall. We did some catching up since we last met up. We needed pick up a birthday gift for our sister. We left once we got the right present as both of us have something to do thereafter.

I came home and got to know that I have a letter. I opened it and saw this!

My first ever saman! Sigh…Saman-ed because of travelling at 85km/h in Penang. I’ve exceeded by 15km/h; like that also kena…..?

Well, there is always first time to something, I supposed.

(K)Night and Day

It was a busy day for me today. Many last minute requests from different parties and my day at work ended with a surprise with doing accruals at the 13th hour from 4.30pm till 8pm. It was stressful and I was pressed for time, because I have a date tonight - A movie date.

He asked me what I would want to do tonight. I replied him with my suggestion and his sweet deed of booking a movie tonight just caught my off guard. He knew I am on leave tomorrow and somehow, he knew my style – never waste my free time/ weekends/ holidays.

I rushed over to Tropicana City Mall and was again being late. We met up, collected the booked tickets and headed to a nearby diner for dinner. There was only 45 minutes left for us to order and eat.

Knight and Day was the movie we watched. In my opinion, the movie was dragging a little too long and over exaggerated with Tom Cruise’s actions. Konon action packed + comedy movie, but in some way with Tom as the main actor…hmm….. just lacking of something – character, perhaps?

The movie was close to 2 hours long. Unexpectedly.

I am happy tonight because I enjoyed myself with Guardian Angel, after a long – stressful- day.
(My boss asked me to rest and enjoy my day off tomorrow before I left the office. She felt bad as I had to do the accruals last minute and it wasn’t my fault to it.)